Apology

To those who at one time followed this blog, I apologise (yes, British spelling. Get over it) for my long absence. I've been away, working and making attempts at getting through a life that has not been easy over the past two years. While, for the first few months, I made a fair attempt at keeping this up to date, I find that I in the end failed.

I make no promises to be much of a success, but I find that life has led me here and I hope to figure out why. Until then, I hope that my many anecdotes, neuroses, and quiet contemplations keep you entertained. Well, not really, but that sounds like something nice to say, doesn't it. This blog is mine, and I write for my entertainment alone. Readers are just along for the ride.

As for an update, while I have suffered no personal loss in the last year, I find that my mind drifts on to the ones from the past two, which happened shortly after the post about how I wanted to say something. I still do, but the words are more easily slipping from the tips of my fingers than they are from my mouth.

January is not a good month for myself, or a few of the others who I am in touch with, and for that I wish to say that I am sorry. I wish that there was something that I could do for each and every one of those people who have suffered during this month. Had I been a religious person, I might have prayed, but my faith in any and all things has wilted to almost nothing. I do wish you a better year than what has been so far.

With all my love, dear readers.

Long time no post

So I broke his heart.

I went down there thinking that maybe I'd be able to be friends and just enjoy the time I had in FL. I thought that we'd be fine, and he would accept the easy friendship that formed with everyone I met down there. Instead, he wanted more, and I wasn't willing to give my heart away so easily. I never have been, and this has cost me a good deal. Too much hurt on my own without risking being hurt by someone else, but in the end, we both come out hurt. He was rejected, and I have lost a very good friend in the process.

I warned him though, telling him that my interest lied only in the realm of friends. He apparently felt chemistry that I did not. He wanted a romance that just wasn't meant to be, and I tried to tell him as much without being blunt. I know I failed in that respect and do not blame him for being hurt. I'm not an eloquent person when it comes to face to face encounters. I'm barely eloquent in text, so please, do give a girl a break.

Though I am a bit MIFFED that he couldn't even see me off at the bus station, instead leaving me to the friend who'd only fallen asleep two hours prior. I hope he was late to work that day. Twat.