Exhausted

This patience this is overrated. I'm doing what I can to make things better for my crew at work (who due to my manager being a passive aggressive wench, I've gotten to work with a good deal more), but it's taking a while. And honestly, it's wearing at me. My emotional and mental reserves are drained, and if not for the people I call friends, I don't think I'd have made it this long.

Granted, I'm trying to figure out how much of this is due to the fact that I've pretty much left myself emotionally opened for a while and it's hurting because while I'm open, the person in question is seemingly stuck in friend mode. Such is the problem with being the person with no confidence, no real redeeming qualities, and no real hope who falls for her best friend time and time again.

Ah well, back to better thoughts. If things work out... I'll be putting my name in for consideration in terms of managing my little corner of the work world. That's a very optimistic if.

Update for those who follow this thing --

I'm alive? I survived Hell Week and managed to piss off my manager because I was called for Jury Selection (but didn't get picked for actual duty) and had to take the week off.

Okay, I suppose that I didn't have to, but you know what? My temper was flaring by the time Hell Week rolled around, and she was egging me on by being whiny and lazy. I was done. So I talked to the AA and she put in for my vacation time. The manager pretty much said that I shouldn't be taking my vacation, despite how I have injured myself recently only to barely take a day to rest.

But enough about that.

Just wanted to say that just when I was getting to the point of losing faith in people (or rather one person in particular), I was given a reason to not give it up. And I got to play with a farting hippo puppet. For those who watch NCIS, you should know what I'm talking about. And what was the most awesome... It had a little spiked collar on! Yay!

But yeah, I'm alive, and this has been a good week. Just not sure if I'm going to be up to dealing with work next week, but hey, at least I get my raise on this coming paycheck (paid for doing 34 hours of NOTHING!)